work woes

it's been a terribly busy week at work, thereby explaining the lack of posts. it's really, really bad. have been bringing home stuff to clear as the backlog is beginning to pile up at a totally ridiculous rate. i'm beyond drowning. i have definitely drowned so now it's more like sinking to the rock bottom of the seabed instead. gonna hit it hard anytime soon man at this rate i'm going. blah. why so bad i hear you ask. it's the nature of being in the events line i reckon. and it really doesn't help when everybody wants a part of you, or rather everybody simply and conveniently flicks things over to you. and being at the lowest runks of the corporate food chain, that means you get piled with all the tedious shit to do and follow-up on. it seems like there are too many balls in the air to juggle at one go. sometimes, i don't even know where to begin! and yeah, i'm so bloody afraid that i might just drop some balls soon simply because it's too overhelming!

oh, did i mention that i'm just about 3 months plus into this job? seems like everybody has also conveninently forgotten about that too. madness. sheer madness. last time when things were relatively easier going (note, the keyword here is 'relatively' - it takes a robot to be immune to hearing customers' endless complaints), i was complaining that there wasn't much of a challenge. and now when there's really a challenge, i'm again complaining that there's way too much work to do. shit. i seriously sound like i don't know what i want. and it scares me that that's a pretty apt description.